DislikedHello, im 18 years old, and have put too much time into forex trading in the past 4 years. My conservative estimate is 5000 hours.Ignored
As noted, trading has great life skill values, which will carry you through the rest of your life.
The market is said to be manic depressive, so objective distance is a must.
That you're going through anxiety/fear and "lust for recognition"/greed, is similar to what we all must fight to trade well.
Depression, according to here, can be more of a relief that can help you see your reality more clearly.
Devote less time and more intensity with daily practice, writing down what you discover; while trading is more independent for most, sharing this may help you improve your general mindset.