Hello, im 18 years old, and have put too much time into forex trading in the past 4 years. My conservative estimate is 5000 hours.
However I have been through mental hell during this, i've had panic attacks ,and in general just immense stress.
Only now do I realise what this has done.
I'm now seeing a therapist with depression and anxiety disorders.
To be fair, anxiety developed through other reasons...and the depression as the result of the anxiety. Trading was always a means of 'escaping' the hell I was in; so long as I mastered forex I could make money and i'd be 'safe' from the anxiety.
I suffer from a chronic lack of confidence and a disgusting lust for recognition. That's all I really want from trading anyway- recognition from others. I feel every time I go near trading, no matter how much I tell myself 'you can still part-time trade alongside a job' , It keeps bringing up these emotions of wanting recognition, which isn't healthy for me in my current state of mind.
Worse still, i'ev actually developed a great approach; I profit in any market condition (trust me , I've no reason to lie here ). As a result I feel giving trading up would be such a huge waste of time.
What should I do? I'm not sure whether continuing trading is good for my mental health, but giving it all up wouldn't be either.....
However I have been through mental hell during this, i've had panic attacks ,and in general just immense stress.
Only now do I realise what this has done.
I'm now seeing a therapist with depression and anxiety disorders.
To be fair, anxiety developed through other reasons...and the depression as the result of the anxiety. Trading was always a means of 'escaping' the hell I was in; so long as I mastered forex I could make money and i'd be 'safe' from the anxiety.
I suffer from a chronic lack of confidence and a disgusting lust for recognition. That's all I really want from trading anyway- recognition from others. I feel every time I go near trading, no matter how much I tell myself 'you can still part-time trade alongside a job' , It keeps bringing up these emotions of wanting recognition, which isn't healthy for me in my current state of mind.
Worse still, i'ev actually developed a great approach; I profit in any market condition (trust me , I've no reason to lie here ). As a result I feel giving trading up would be such a huge waste of time.
What should I do? I'm not sure whether continuing trading is good for my mental health, but giving it all up wouldn't be either.....