Dislikedno i am not considering paying for forex course.. i am saying i consider my current 5k account is my tuition fees for forex... learning on the jobIgnored
Whilst I am aware that most traders blow an account or two, I don't think it's a good idea to set out believiing it will happen, or to accept it before it has happened.
If you did indeed lose the lot then all you will have learned is that you are not ready.
Lastly, whilst I know fti recommends having more capital than this and he is right, 5k is nowhere near as small an amount as some people start out with and certainly not small enough to blame for any deficiencies in your methodology. Why on earth did you hold onto a position for 4 or 5 months? I'm sure there is nothing in the first 200 pages that you said you have read 3 times that would lead you to trade in that manner. If you skim through the pages you will learn nothing. Worse, you will try to use an MO that is very dangerous if you have not taken the time to absorb it properly and work on your mindset.
Sorry if that all sounds negative but you seem to be treating it as a game.
People in here can cut you as much slack as you like but the market won't, it will destroy you if you are not careful.