I don't know who needs to hear this...but last 2 years of trading was hell to me...blowing accounts, breaking my discipline and literally crying. I back tested like 4 years of data on ICT inversion-based strategy, sitting on my PC for 10 10 hours continuously but it did not click for me. Although my back testing results were good enough but during the live market, I was fucked agn nd agn. I had rules like only taking 1 trade per trade, having perfect confluence list bt it was just all crap.
When I shifted to orderflow everything changed and I would say that I have not changed I am still the same person...I feel angry at the loss, I feel impatient when I see fluctuating PNL but what changed is the I have started accepting losses becoz I know I can literally take 10 trades in a day that thought made me calm...as I shifted from intraday trader to a scalper my impatient of holding a trade has been eliminated becoz 90% of my trades never goes above 1 or 2mins and these learnings did not come from outside.
I analyzed myself and in spite of Gurus advise like meditating, gyming I changed things around my behavior, and everything changed. We as humans always tries to make ourselves better by working hard, but do we rally tries to understand ourselves like what if our internal chaos is good enough to satisfy external circumstance nd with that chaos we could direct better decisions
When I shifted to orderflow everything changed and I would say that I have not changed I am still the same person...I feel angry at the loss, I feel impatient when I see fluctuating PNL but what changed is the I have started accepting losses becoz I know I can literally take 10 trades in a day that thought made me calm...as I shifted from intraday trader to a scalper my impatient of holding a trade has been eliminated becoz 90% of my trades never goes above 1 or 2mins and these learnings did not come from outside.
I analyzed myself and in spite of Gurus advise like meditating, gyming I changed things around my behavior, and everything changed. We as humans always tries to make ourselves better by working hard, but do we rally tries to understand ourselves like what if our internal chaos is good enough to satisfy external circumstance nd with that chaos we could direct better decisions