Nikkei cruising

Ok I'm in hot water had to close a few in a rather big loss
But I'm keeping my cool
You have to in this line of work

The plan is to close my remaining bad positions in a BE at 770-780 area and re enter much much higher 33056 I need to be brave and whack em hard higher!
I feel like days like this really test your faith if you've got what it takes to be a real trader, we'll see

This is definitely much stranger than yd European open spike, very resilient !!

But I don't know I don't feel right with these bulls despite their force I remain a bear.

only 1 position remaining
the other one closed with a hefty loss
its a proper bloodbath
this trade I guess will decide whether I can be a trader or not...

but the plan remains the same
European pre open indications tell me they'll be a bear target more or less the same

32780 is a good area for bulls but for bears to really attack they'll need the bulls to test 33100 area
If they allow me to execute the plan I'll be very aggressive meaning I'll buy from 32780 and attack as a bear from 33100 targeting 32580 area
they've almost skinned me alive if I survive to trade another day I don't care if I have to carry this battle through the weekend and onto Monday
let's see

sometimes I wonder why do I voluntarily let myself go through this emotional torture chamber every single day ?

every single day no matter how good you are and how many years you've got under your belt as day traders we choose to sit under layers upon layers of "uncertainty" no single holy grail pattern or stop loss will save you from finding yourself in a position like this day in an day out I try my best to feel its intended direction along with higher TF confluence levels of course !

even so it will test your conviction over and over again, without strong conviction that you're on the right side you're dead before you even begin because if you keep crossing the road to catch the bus in both direction sooner or later you'll get run over you have to complete the circle before you begin to take on a new trade in a new direction and we're all by yourselves to make it or to die every single day

but I would be lying if the only thing it ever did was to torture in fact the monetary gain you can derive from this line of work is just a byproduct the greatest lesson it will teach you lies beyond it with time and enough torture you'll learn that there's a much higher force at work both in trading and in life the only job we as traders to master is to steer our vessel to the direction of the wind that it blows and to let go of control because we never really had control if anything the illusion of control just did more harm than good

this higher force will do whatever it "will" do and we don't really know for sure but if you're open you'll learn to hear the whispers, you're not winning at life or at trading because you're great and can look into future events in fact you've just learnt to follow the signs like a good troop if you've reached that stage for sure you'll be fine the force will take care of the rest let that little person who "does" everything rest in peace.

I have a feeling these are trapped bears
I have a new level from 1h the burgundy line retest above that will be bulls last confirmation around 474 area
I have to stay still

Target hit overnight

If you don't respect risk, it won't respect you

Think it's time I end this journal here

It's been a pleasure

Sure there's more to learn for the next half of this journey

I've only done the first half, 10year mark

But I've got this , you know think its better done in private

Good luck to everyone that I've came across along the path just keep the egos in check and I'm sure you're all going to be alright.

Me included

Sad for your decision, and i hope you will re-consider next days. Anyway I will respect it, whatever it will be.

But if I may, I I think that despite we trade into a a niche (as Forex is the absolutely king here in FF) , I mean we trade some worldwide Indices, it is good for a solitary trader as me (and probably as many other solitary traders) to read the diary, the everyday story for same people as me and you. (Nikkey or DAX, or Nasdaq dont change too much the scenario we trade)
Even if we write here each other from time to time, you and some others as me and you, really can fully understand the feelings, the sentiments, the way of trader thinking that ordinary people that we regularly meet in our ordinary life, cant understand or only partly can understand.

So good luck for you, whatever you will do, hoping that there will be some further posts from you in the foreseable future.

from BRIX, the survivor

Going short from previous high but prepared for other scenarios these days I'm learning that if you aren't able to move with the wind, the wind will wipe you out.

No prediction here.

Just finessing my dancing skill.

Might get a test below where I went short BUT we're not out the woods yet this could very quickly turn into broadening in which case I'll have to turn OR the big guys can easily trap you on the wrong side !

OK its a test now unless something else happens

Turned around

Out from short -35.5p

turned around again.

I need to find "better" entries for my turnaround positions to keep my previous positions in the green however small they may be.

Going to let this run until tomorrow.

It hit the 150p mark.

Last trade of the week ,
will be keeping it until Monday morning

And no it wasn't a smooth ride it never is,
had to go back and forth 4x !

but the losses were kept at almost non existent levels
making progress here

you never know how far it'll go so I stopped making predictions on my exits too sometimes it goes for 300p sometimes over 1000p somedays it stops at BE so I decided to just let it run its course in other words until the next morning

I also stopped being so rigid, I don't even try to make any predictions I just look at the signs and take my clues from there the most difficult thing for my little human brain to grasp was the inherent nature of "change" in price action and to learn to go with the changing of flow besides the obvious rules of the game which covers the underlying conditions of change and when to make the turn and when to keep it overnight

although it can be quite vague to identify those underlying conditions because no other pattern follow the exact same outline you have to kind of learn to see beyond the chaos in full clarity and make sense its difficult but after years and years of staring into incomprehensible chaos your brain fortunately learns ! if your foundation is correct.

having said that the rules and the levels are very solid but I also make room for flexibility within my rules but that is also covered in my rules so you could argue that rules are rules.

enough ramble.

checking out here,

1 long overnight position

7 attempts in total !

That's a new record.

First entry of the day/week
Its a warm up before the actual show
But as I am finding out lately you can still make a buck on those moves while feeling out the flow and the important levels for the main move.
Exit the line above.

Trying to minimize the wrong entries.

Reversed

The main show starts from hereon.
Unless I see a change of flow this short will remain.

Out +37p

Change of heart.
Bulls retaliated.