Journal for my Self-improvement

I have to find this holy grail for sure for sure.
Maybe the market cannot be predicted to a T, but I believe that there is some structure to it which I must find.
I have asked and I shall receive.
I have knocked so the door shall be opened for me.
At least I hope so.
For now just practise practise is all i can do until I figure out the blueprint of the market

I will take 2668 short if it gets there.

I kinda wanna take this 2604 and 2585 buy

Took long

A fakeout towards the low and a turn is what i am expecting.
If i dont see that i will close it.

if bearish i should see plenty of upper wicks in this 2600 area. i should be able to get out BE retest even if it is bearish.

Closed it. this sucker isnt gonna move till nonfarm

What are you practising if you don't have an understanding of what the market is doing?

I am practising seeing the market reveal information about itself in live environment and if I can get it right.
If i consistently get it right then it will build confidence. Then i can combine this new found market strucutre tool with my own strategy to trade at the right time and right place.

Bought here

trying to organise a zoom for sometime over weekend with dantpm, nozzer, Thenew and a few others. havent set a time yet but was thinking around 3pm UK
if you want to join let me know. Out at Costa for a coffee atm, back later

It looks to me like you are lost in randomness of the markets. There is no holy grail in trading. Markets always change and any strategy you come up with has to adapt.

You titled this topic: `journal for my self-improvement` and that you want to improve discpline, psychology, etc. It's not about that. You are missing the most important piece: you do not have a trading strategy that works. Once you have it, then go work on your discipline, but most likely you won't need it.

Contrary to popular belief taught by internet gurus and repeated by losing and naive traders psychology is not 90% of you success. I would rather say it's 3-5%. Once you understand the market and have the technical skills you basicially just need to keep high level of focus and work hard to stay in touch with the markets.

Some prerequisites you need to be successful:
- low ego / open mind: being open to feedback from the market and people who actually know how to trade
- not being naive: sticking to losing strategies, beliving in some market consipracies, banks running your stops, etc.
- persistency: I don't mean being persistent using strategy that doesn't make you money, I mean being persistent in finding the right one
- understanding randomness

If you want to move in the right direction I recommend you read those books:
- Fooled by randomness by Nassim-Taleb
- Trading and exchanges by Larry Harris - challenging read, a guy who implemented trading engine for NYSE recommended me this book and it's great, you'll actually learn the facts on how exchanges work
- Markets in Profile by Jim Dalton - you'll lean some auction theory useful in understanding the markets

Thank you sir. Today I cannot make it because the work is a little busy. But I really appreciate it that you always go out of your way to help newbie like me.

its not today, its either going to be Sat/Sun

I could definitely make it on Sunday anytime

Took partials and rest take it to 2667

ok, lets do 3pm Sunday UK time

Fuckkk i want to question everything. It could help me brainstorm ideas.
Maybe it will give me insights.
I wanna make money by following trend.
what is a trend. a trend is just price making some idk a pattern towards upside or downside.
I say I wanna catch this trend.
what am i trying to catch. am i trying to catch the price. what price. when can i catch this price.
why when is important. why is this time important if i wanna catch price. just catch the price. can you even catch the price.
why do i have to wait. what am i waiting for.
what are these timeframes, candles. why is it a fractal.
is price fractalling itself or time fractalling itself.
market is a fractal people say. God is fractal that I know.
Only God exists. God manifests itself as the children of God in many forms. Only sun exists. Rays are nothing but sun itself. Just name and form.
market manifests itself as price
In reality, there is no time. There is no past or future.
Only present moment exists. Only now exists.
I have to trade in the now.
How can i trade in the now.
does the history have no significance to the present.
Price, rays, children of God
They make up the God or the sun or the market.
they are not apart from God sun market.
How will this help me.
There is no new information created.
Only transformation from one form to another.
how will yesterdays candle help me trade in the now
There is also this cause and effect in this dualistic world. Time space and causation.
but they come after market sun God. there is no time space causation before that.
there is no cause of the now. Now simply exists has to be the first truth.
How can I trade in the now
where does the now begin. now doesnt have a beginning or an end. it is the alpha and the omega
how can i join the now. i am in the now. there is nothing apart from now.
where does the trend form. trend is always forming and always collapsing
why does this market sync. what is this alignment. why does it align like that.
what is this syncing. Synchronocity. why do they meet together. who are they. why should they. who is meeting.
is price meeting time. huh price meets time. Right time and right place. what does this even mean. i am not a scientist. idk how to think price meets time.
price at 12am is 20 price at 1am is 40 price at 5 am is 30 price at 8am is 70. price at 12 pm is 10. price now is 20 and then 50. where is the order in this chaos.
what am i looking at as the candles are printed. will this past candle help me
how does past come into now if the past doesnt exist as of now.
how can i reach the sun . via rays. just follow the rays
just follow. follow the price. price is the ray price is the children of god
look at the price. it will show you the face of the marketsunGod. why do i need to see the face of the marketsunGod. will it help me trade better.
how can i understand this price. market is only price and price through and through.
price creating the face of market like rays creaing the face of sun.
but in this world, I created time to keep track of cycles of sun moon and what not. it helps me wake up and go to work. why this time cycle important to me
what would happen to my existence without this time cycle. I guess chaos and death of body mind would happen. But existence should still exist I think.
i should not forget that i am is the first truth and then time follows. I have to exist first then time space causation can come later to help me give order to disorder.
Similarly, maybe i should use time just for the sake of creating order in price.
sure only price exists through and through. market is price. price is market. but if time makes things easier for me to order price then I should use it.
i exist still the only truth. then i order myself by wake up at right time and go to work.
Price still the only truth. Price still the market manifestee. but then i order it in timeframes/candles.
In the now, this existence(only real truth) wakes up at 5am (time created) and go to work(space created) because i have to make money(causation created).
In the now, price (real truth) goes up and down (space created) at London open (time created) lets say because interest rates are higher(causation).
why cant i just simply exist and forget time space causation. why cant price simply exist and forget time space causation
Clay exists in and of itself but pot gives it a name form and use. i can use pot to store water. If i want to know the essence of pot I look at clay.
Price exists in and of itself but candlestick chart gives it a name form and use I guess. i can use candles to store trading information. If i want to know the essence of chart I look at price.
I guess i have reached a dead end now

Bring your questions tomorrow 3pm UK see you there, i think there will be 3 others also

I know the clay is always there. I know the price is always there shining as the true reality.
But what good does it do to me. Yes I admit I forget to look at price sometimes and I get lost on timeframes patterns and cycles.
I need to pay more attention to price. But I know it is there.
The pot actually really helps me in my daily life. So much so that I dont even notice clay sometimes. All i see is pot and how i can use the pot to help me. But I know the clay is there.
But one day I break my pot. If i have to create a new pot, I will find some clay. Wet clay. Then I will make a new pot.
Therefore, truly if I wanna not just make money but understand the market in its entirety then maybe I have to look at price.
Price ticks look random just like clay but grouped together in space and time they create the market. No they are the market.
Every tick is the essence of the market. Market breathes through price ticks. Pot breathes through clay.
Great I get it but tell me how will you trade better with this information. I guess I will watch price more closely than ever before. idk how this will help my trading decisions.
What about this price pattern sync. why are they syncing like the 12am hands of the clock. what could this mean.
The time is only one- now. But price grouped together at some point in time in different timeframes do exactly the same thing. How to expalin this.
well a new day begins at 12am for us and the hands of the clock all pointed to the same direction. The hands of the clock collapses in itself.
As if to say there is a point of collapse for everything. A potential energy, an inert energy, the death of body mind, the galaxies shrinked to one pointed black hole.
However, as the second hand of the clock ticks there is a regeneration, a new kinetic energy, new body mind, new star starts to form. Inception begins.
Perhaps market also collapses in itself when it starts to synchronize and reaches this potential energy of equilibrium between buyers and sellers. perhaps that is the true beginning of momentum, trend, and kinetic energy to establish trend.
Therefore maybe I need to find this point of collapse and equilibirium and sync from where a new trend is likely to develop.
Hmm makes sense but I wonder if it is true.
I will have to keep looking for this phenomenon as a true start of the trend.
I am gonna go grab a ice cold beer now to relax a little.
I need to do more of this brainstorming for sure for sure.