Hey Veni, I hope you are reading this. Just to answer your message :
I did the exercise. I kind of know on an intellectual level that it's what's holding me back. Some days I am in that state. I just follow price flow and I exit when I'm wrong (basically "I bet this level will hold" and exit if it doesn't v.s. "this shit's going up" and not knowing when "this shit's no more going up"), then one of those trades runs and everything just seems so easy. Other days it is more of a hassle and that's when I do self-sabotage crap that dig a hole in my account. Basically not being able to handle the fact some days are just crap and/or always wanting more.
You previously told me you had (similar?) self-sabotaging issues before. I believe it to be the case for me right now. Mainly self-sabotaging stuff that adds up quickly. Always wondered how you proceeded to eliminate those self-sabotaging issues? (Could never answer back to the message you sent me last winter, although I thought it was very kind of you to send it and I still to this day resonate with what you said and my life is in a way very similar to yours, except the succeeding at building a trading business for myself).
Focussing on currencies is nice, it is "slower" in a advantageous way (not saying it is easy, not even easier, just different and maybe a better fit for me). Sometimes I believe the time I spent on nq is kind of wasted. It does not move like the pairs until later in the day. So I spent hours upon hours watching high volatility-low probability-shit odds trying to make sense of whatever the hell was going on. Punching crap around my office and chasing the market; Seeing levels get over-powered one after the other with almost no reliability to know when to exit or hold. Joke's on me though. I know it is only me who can make the career work. Anyway... rambling again lol.
In short, I find there is more peace in my trading with the currencies now.
I did the exercise. I kind of know on an intellectual level that it's what's holding me back. Some days I am in that state. I just follow price flow and I exit when I'm wrong (basically "I bet this level will hold" and exit if it doesn't v.s. "this shit's going up" and not knowing when "this shit's no more going up"), then one of those trades runs and everything just seems so easy. Other days it is more of a hassle and that's when I do self-sabotage crap that dig a hole in my account. Basically not being able to handle the fact some days are just crap and/or always wanting more.
You previously told me you had (similar?) self-sabotaging issues before. I believe it to be the case for me right now. Mainly self-sabotaging stuff that adds up quickly. Always wondered how you proceeded to eliminate those self-sabotaging issues? (Could never answer back to the message you sent me last winter, although I thought it was very kind of you to send it and I still to this day resonate with what you said and my life is in a way very similar to yours, except the succeeding at building a trading business for myself).
Focussing on currencies is nice, it is "slower" in a advantageous way (not saying it is easy, not even easier, just different and maybe a better fit for me). Sometimes I believe the time I spent on nq is kind of wasted. It does not move like the pairs until later in the day. So I spent hours upon hours watching high volatility-low probability-shit odds trying to make sense of whatever the hell was going on. Punching crap around my office and chasing the market; Seeing levels get over-powered one after the other with almost no reliability to know when to exit or hold. Joke's on me though. I know it is only me who can make the career work. Anyway... rambling again lol.
In short, I find there is more peace in my trading with the currencies now.
No tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell
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