Meanderings

Well whaddya know! 1.2 pip spread this morning. Alpari is shaping up. But right now (7:50 London time, 8:50 Swedish time) they are busting my shops with 1.9! Outrageous! Outrageous i say!

Well anyway. 1.2 is just fine. 1.9 is not fine.

I think that on a 0 spread account i would would try skiping the math and indies and just go for it, 3 months or so, and if - i would go back to some indies and MAs and things.

Shesh, what a sweaty day! And i aint got much to show for it. Well time for friends.

Tried looking at my old friend the M1 today. It just got me nervous. I couldnt see the patterns so well. I think those days are over. Holding something for a few hours is actually quite nice. A couple of years ago that was agony. I guess that is confidence. In what i dont really know. I guess its the (1)+(3)+(4) = (2) I just know its there. Inside. Brilliant. Shining darkness. As old as the oceans. A multitude of lifetimes. Hidden in darkness.

I am standing inside a museum. This is modern times. Or at least after 2009. This is evident when i look at the haircuts. I stand between two hanging cloths. They are ment to be expensive or something. But the concept seem lost to me. I have the time to collect every fibre of silk in China. I have time to convince the masters to let me know how to weave. The masters who know to hack out an existence, in this world so bleak, so perverted, so destroyed. Such existence is filled only with the people and things that are chosen.

So many have gone on before us, yet we know so little of this. For most of it have been taken away from us. We have been robbed, lied to, fooled by powers so short sighted, so greedy.

A decision takes three lifetimes to take its effect. The first generation makes the choice and leaves it as a tradition to the second generation. The second generation changes some of the traditions according to the times. The third generation knows the first generation as the elders, soon to pass out of time this time. The fourth generation are rebellious for they sometimes forget how to talk to the dead.

1 st T

On Li: 2 units
+: As set previously
P: 2 Go, rest circa 5 Ba
Acc: circa 30

Todays up move seems sort of like a abnormality. Im not counting on that being so or anything, but i guess we will se how it goes.



Actually here i have made the fib contemporary for today just to see.



Im thinking that if it breaks .5, like in this one then its sort of like a downmove, not just a retrace of the whole move



Didnt really make it down to .618 there so its not really a downer, just a normal retrace of the move. Meaning its still going up in this definition.

Looking back, what has been the purpose of all this time i have spent with non profitable systems? Well, noticing that they are not profitable. Why is an irrelevant question. There is no "why". Or if there is, it seems not worth finding out about.

I like 1997. It was a good, solid year. A year to depend on. I think -98 wasnt as good. -99 though i really like. 2000 was cool too. 2001 was OK i guess, but not that great really. I sort of expected more from 2001 but it really bugged my out a couple of times. But 2002 was really good. I learned a lot of shit there. How to train kicking on sheep in the best MUD ever. Fuck me. Maybe there where some MMOs back then. I dont care anyway. Anyway. Yeah. 2002, i really liked that year. Sad to see it end. 2003 was pretty cool i guess. And then 2004 was cool too, especially in the summer. And then 2005 was OK. 2006 was really cool i think. 2007 things started to get shaky. REAL shaky. What the fuck had i been doing all the time? What the fuck was this university shithole for? They walk around like dead fucking idiot parrots spewing elk cum in each others ear. "A seminar" they say? More like a fucking coffeebreak for morhuhns! WHAT IN THE NAME OF FUCK are people really doing in this boring fucking corridors? They are all inbred halfwits, masons and sweater wearing idiots. They dont know fucking shit about the world and they want to stay in their cocoon of shit and dust for the rest of their lives.

I really loved the university in many ways looking back on it. But 2007 i didnt. FUCK THAT SHIT! 2008 was chaotic as FUCK. But a lot of fun, even though love was all fucked up. 2009 was total, absolute fucking crazy all the fucking time. 2010 was A LOT WORSE then 2009. But MUCH more fun. Shit i started going places then. With the birds and everything. Sitting in the forest by the fire in the rain. I made a fire in -10 degrees in the winter. Shit! A big fucking fire! And the strange places! Outside of Umeå. To the north and east. Shit, those places, what is going on there? Really heavy stuff.

But also i like 1986. -87 i dont like that much. Or was it -88? Yeah those two where kind of cool even though they where shit. Had to claw my way free of the system trying to engulf me with its sell candle. While im on the subject of the past:

Yeah. I think i played RPG the first time in -88. Wow dude that was really something! Fuck that has opened a lot of doors that most people havent even gone near. Not the AD&D shit. Im talking some real heavy stuff here, not move here, hack there, pick that fucking shit up you lazy asshole shitface. Not that. Thats simple boardgames and anyone smarter then a doorknob grows tired after 12 minutes.

The shit people did? Just to stay alive? The stuff they did to each other? Horrible. Nice sometimes. I learned a lot of group psychology in that. God damn i fucked with peoples minds.

Burning infants in a sea of oil. No food. On a big boat drifting through oil and fire.

Vampires gliding in the ceiling laughing. Nothing was ordained. Nothing scripted.

7 adventures. That was the AVERAGE life span of a character. We actually calculated it. And it was OK. But we didnt count the characters you only play one adventure. A lot of the time, there was no character there. Just math on a paper. Everyone had days like that. Otherwise, about 7 adventures. In 7 adventures something became EXPECTED of you. The GM wanted to up the anti. The GM wanted to say "Now you shitfaced asshole monkeys, the world is at your feet. Where you whanna go? What you whanna do? Who you gonna fight? Who you gonna suck up to? Are you going to kill the king? Are you going to be voted the king? No questions of "why". The rules and the world decides what happens. Or the GM does.

We even played online for a bit. Its ok, but i use a lot of body language so that doesnt get into the mix. Kind of a bad thing.

Well tommorrow is the next time. Ive been doing this for 27 years. For periods of time we used to play 10 hours a day. A healthy dose. 1-2 hours of school. But RPG was a lot better teacher then fucking high school shit asshole teachers. Fucking establishment bullshit! Inneffective prison of young people. Motherfuckers the lot of them. They have forgotten how to fuck properly. So that you come at the same time.

The school system all over the world is an EXACT modell of how it was conducted 500 years ago. ANYONE who studied behavioural science knows this. WHAT IN THE NAME OF FUCK IS GOING ON! WHY THE FUCK HAVENT IT CHANGED. Yeah sure. We had lectures online that we could look at. A smug, stupid fucking asshole teacher standing there looking like a drunk comedian in a sleazy jazz bar. Fuck that so stupid i almost shit my fucking pants. Why the fuck would i care about this man babbling on about some shit nobody cares about?

Eventually i wrote my shit. It was OK. Not good, OK. It questioned everything that people know about how to measure knowledge. It posed the problem that its impossible to weigh one persons knowledge and say it is "more" then another persons, so removing the whole idea of grades for ever. Nobody gave a shit. So i stopped giving a shit about them.

Thats why i will create a scientific center. Also art and martial arts are included. And everybody is welcome. Its not a sect for you dont pay fucking shit. Its all free and im making this happening EVERY FUCKING DAY! I dont care the my greatest inspirator in this is in SCF-FI, Isaac Asimov. The foundation. He was a swell dude. Fuck, god damn he was smart. If ever i find his head like in Futurama, i will animate it and talk to him for ages. Then we can work onwards with psychohistory and really work out what the fuck is going on and when its going to happen.

Im not WAITING for something to happen, its happening all the time. Its simply a matter of if i want in or if i am going to stand and watch.

Watching Pa since 2009.

Coming home


Its a battle inside. Seems to be about MUCH more then M1 and M5. Its like my struggle from M1 to M5 is also a shift in something a lot bigger as well. From a civilization that measured time in hours, minutes, seconds to a civilization that measured time in terms of galaxies with people in it that they had a relation to.



PA is chief always and ever, because it whats drives the rest. Natural ATR is "much/little" hunch. The psychohistorical effect called "Fear of loss" is in control. The average MM is that 70 pips is "Oh fuck me moma!" To loose 70 is BAD. If you got 2 in -70, of course thats -140. Well anyway. 70 is the defenition of daytrading fear. 70 Should represent 0.5%. Normal profit each day should be 70. 0.5% is the day target. It all works out.

ROI 1:4 = Aprox. total loss / day 23.3
Aprox. total win / day 93.3
93.3-23.3=70
It all balances out. There is no - in the universe. - is abscence of existence. + is it. + is space filled with something. Apple trees. Kids playing. Clean water. A place to live for peace, stage art, science, litterature, martial arts, magic, occult, rituals, singing, dancing. A place not afraid of darkness. A place not afraid of light.

Hammer Downward





And skii slope

If there is a buy move right now, im just waiting for it to get exhausted and then im back in selling.

13 +

0 -

Guess im going out for lunch. Guess who is paying? The big banks!
Apparently they wanted to loose some of their money.

24 +
1-
For today.

So yesterday ended with 27+ and 3- positions.

Right now im just waiting to see what happens at the DPV. There is a big probability price will shoot away today since its in a wedge. Either that or its just going to mellow and shoot after the weekend. Either way the long term trend has ended:



I feel VERY confident from the result of last 2 days of trading. Something like 50 pip/day +, so its all good. But tody has a BIG up AND down side technical volatility. We are just some 20-30 pips north of some REALLY MASSIVE longs lying in wait, im talking billions!

Its SO NICE to wake up and not have any positions open, not be decided if im going to sell or if im going to buy today. Right now it looks almost a 50/50 case. Maybe, just maybe i would prefer selling, but its NOT a very big lead, maybe .53 for selling.

Ive had enough of unknown people lately. They can stay and rot in their own mind filth for all i care. Im trying to spread the love but nobody wants it so fuck em! Fucking assholes looking for a "All green lights, buy" type thing. They arent even interested in the way there, they just want a fucking chicken that shits dollar bills. Moorhuhns. Im not going to write a book about trading. Traders wannabes are way to selfish, lazy and greedy to deserve even a speck of dust they could use. I wont post more then the most trivial information until i see some kind of reciprocation. Of course i sort of knew this already, although i was hoping not everyone is like that. But i guess i was wrong. Well it dont matter.

I guess i will use this mostly for psychological tracking, qualitative data.