Pipbuilder's hole

So first let me introduce myself. Im 19yo student right before leaving exams(perfect time go live right?) and Im from one small country in Central Europe.

After 4 years of studying forex I have finally decided to go LIVE. I think that it was really long journey and interresting one - from trying to find "holly grail" to trading with trend, using round numbers, fibonacci and no emotion trades.
I dont use indicators. They show us only what has already happened. Everything what I need I can see on the charts.

I trade majors, some crosses(gbp/jpy-favourite one). No exotic or some "individuals" with big spread.

Here is my trading jounal to help me keep me disciplined. Ive got alway problems with discipline, I can count on my fingers how many times I have done my school homework during last 5 school years.

Here are my goals:
(1)Firstly I want to stay alive, get comfortable with live trading, watch my emotions
(2)After that I want to make some little profit and then fund my account with "serious money".
(3)Then make pips
(4)Finally make tons of pips.
I dont have time horizont for any of this.

NOTE: I have a micro account at FXCM. Coz of low spreads(I know u can find lower) and the option to fund your accout just with credit card.
NOTE: Right now It is mainly for personal purposes only.

See you soon.

First LIVE trading day is beyond me. It was bad one. It rly hurts. May be it is better to have first live trade really bad.
But never mind I have to learn from these mistakes and try to not repeat them. I think that my biggest mistake was that I slept too long and after Id waken up I was rly mad at myself that I was unable to woke up earlier especialy when I saw the big moves. So I tried to jump(based on no strategy) on this pip train but the train stopped...

GBP/USD - -65
EUR/USD - -30
EUR/JPY - -45

TOTAL: - 140

My second day between LIVE traders hasnt started very well. I got my ass kicked on gpy/jpy - twice on Manufacturing Production m/m and once by too tide SL(I think here comes emotion called FEAR into game). I got my ass kicked on gpb/usd coz of same reason.
Luckily I have made two long trades on eur/jpy and usd/jpy.

Although Im not after first two days in profit Im glad that Ive started that Im still in this "game". Im also glad that I gain some new experiences, I met mr.FEAR and I also met mr.GREED.

GBP/JPY - -74
GBP/USD - -38
EUR/JPY - +115
USD/JPY - +43
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TOTAL: 44



After 2 days: -96