So I am editing this post because I have gotten a few PM's as well as the 2 comments below.
How I got here. I have been trading forex for a little over 2 years. I started with an initial investment of $35K. I spent $11k on 2 mentorship/training programs, Online Academy and Market Traders Institute. I might as well have burned that 11k because I learned nothing, everything they taught was pretty much available for free which gives you its value. I have bought 89 different indicators/systems from the various affiliate marketers that hit my email everyday. Anyone seen the newest bit coin scam!!!
All said I have invested 17K on indicators and training. I have spent countless hours back testing systems on these forums as a fly on the wall. I am not a successful trader. I recently came across a system here on FF that showed promise however as many of the systems on FF do they start simple and become more and more complicated as more and more indicators are added to "filter the price" or as I like to say "create the grail".
As it became apparent that I was not going to be able to trade the system the way it was being developed I reached out to another forum member who thankfully is helping me to turn it around. I am asking that if you post in this thread that you please refrain from negative comments. The thread is to journal my trading and part of the process in turning it around.
Honesty with myself and others..
I talked with my wife tonight that the trading has not been going very well and that 50% of the original capital we agreed to risk is now gone. I wasn't hiding the fact that I had not made a profit but wanted to get her input so we could decide if I would continue to walk this path or get out now while we still had something left to maybe risk in another venture.
Together we made the choice to continue and follow our plan. I cannot describe the immediate relief and how much less stressed I now feel knowing that I still have her support. For the last year or so trading was not at all enjoyable I felt like a failure. I felt guilty for my losses and as if I was going to/had let my family down. I was desperate ( and still am ) for some sort of success. I now can move forward knowing that I can keep her in the loop that she understands the risks and is supportive. She will be my trader mate.
Success starts tommorow