Disliked{quote} I disagree. I have detached myself from my money. The result: I have caught myself treating my money as if it was demo money. Meh, it's only money... I can deposit more. Now i am trying to attach my emotions back to my money and treat it like it really really matters and things are getting better. I am a protector now. Maybe you haven't gone full circle before. Maybe you will find out for yourself one day that it is okay to attach feelings and emotions to your money. After all, you wouldn't risk your life and the ones you love on dangerous...Ignored
Think of the steps rationally.
Find something that works.
Demo until you are consistant.
Figure out your max loss limits daily, weekly, etc...
Deposit enough money such that you won't be margin called from the regular activity of your plan.
Trade your plan live with the smallest positions that keep your plan viable.
Then evaluate and either add more contracts or start from one of the prior steps.
What step did you miss?
To me it looks like you didnt have enough money in the account to trade
OR
You weren't following your plan that you proved successful beyond the shadow of a doubt.
This is a different problem. This is not the hesitation from going live issue that is being addressed.
In the case of hesitation, it's an attachment to the result issue. These things can only be resolved when you make peace with losing whatever it is that is holding you back (money).
Here's what's important.
You dont fully detach emotions from all your money.
You fully detach emotions from the money you've measured to be the amount you need to trade this plan.
THEN you fully attach to trading your plan with absolutely no deviations.
That's all there is to that.