I knew from the outset that ALL the stuff found in books, videos or online material don't work. Yet at the same time I don't know what works. I don't even know what I was searching for, in what shape or form. All I know is it has to be logical, make sense and can be quantitatively proven. My mistake is twofold - I thought the search will be within a couple of years, 3-5 yrs maybe, but I was way off target. Second mistake, I could not resist punting blindly eventhough I knew back then that I know I have no edge. I waited years for something to gel but admittedly there's nothing concrete, so out of frustration and impatience I took to gambling on forex. Yes I say gambling because I could not substantiate logically with concrete proof why I will want to punt a dime on this forex market, let alone make money from this endeavour. My 2 mistakes I hope others can learn from it - it's much much harder than you imagine it to be.